No pain, no gain

To say that I feel quite tired is like saying Lady Godiva was underdressed! I feel absolutely knackered and in pain! I have been taking pain killers since last night and I have already taken one this morning—it isn’t even 9:30am yet! The downside is I get somewhat drowsy after I’ve taken them and to keep me awake I am now drinking strong coffee—and I hardly drink coffee anymore!
The cause of this physical angst was I decided to clear the rubbish off my flower bed yesterday, replant a huge hydrangea (with Peter’s help of course), and plant my spring bulbs. Now my back muscles—from neck to ankles—are protesting from the demands made to them. There was so much muck because of the rain and I had to pull out the nasturtium, sedum and an unclassified weed that threatened to colonise the area. The problem was this area was just outside my kitchen door, which meant I could see everything close up from my kitchen! I was working from 10:30am to 3:30pm. I even had enough energy to wash my car, top up the oil and screen washer liquid. Then I cooked a roast chicken for dinner and prepared my lunch today. I am having a crab linguini with chilli. Yumolah!
Just think this time next week I will be driving a Toyota Yaris instead of a Peugeot. I had to break my piggy bank to buy this car but there is no other recourse. I need to update my car. The Yaris Spirit has everything I want—from fog lights, alloy wheels, air-conditioning, electric door mirrors, CD/radio, power steering, electric windows, remote central locking, sunroof and a mid size (almost!) 1.3cc VVTi engine. Toyota will deliver the car on Friday this week. I am getting quite excited!
I couldn’t really get that hyped up last week because I wasn’t sure we could get the Yaris I want but late last week everything suddenly came together. Good thing I had a buyer for my car already—my colleague’s husband—and she wrote out a cheque last Friday.
Last week was also a very emotionally charged week especially Thursday and Friday. I am still coming to terms with the events. According to my father’s famous adage—“it was a blessing in disguise”. Good things could come out from terrible events. I am still trying to process everything. Peter was very supportive although I was in a state. I have blocked a lot of emotions from my life to the point of appearing too cold and analytical to some people. I avoid negative emotions like anger, envy and hate. There is nothing to be gained from them. I also avoid confrontation. I have a deep aversion to “dramas”. I do not have it in me to completely lose my temper and go on a rampage. In fact I cannot imagine how it is to go on a blind rage. However I cannot say that I will never snap. Who knows what could happen if someone pushes my “explode” button? Maybe someday I could write about what happened last week but not just yet.
The clocks went back yesterday and we are now in British winter time. The nights are closing in although it is still quite mild for the time of year—ahh, global warming! I am now thinking of Christmas. As per usual I host the family’s Christmas dinner. Where did the year go????